Mother-Daughter Relationship

All my life I've had a difficult relationship with my mother.  Rarely has it been easy.  There is judgement, narrow thinking, religious dogma.  She's a birther.  So, you can see we're not exactly aligned.  But, there's also a fun and dynamic side to her.

We're in a tense time right now.  She's upset that I don't quote the Bible to her.  Mom, I think that personal, I don't believe in proselytizing.  That's a personal choice for anyone.  The Bible says to go out and spread the Word, she insists.  Mom, I'm not telling you not to, it's just not a choice that's right for me.  I worry about where you're headed, which I take as my future in hell.  Mom, my spiritual side is in tact and it's not her role to judge me.  Well, that ended that conversation and we haven't spoken for months.

I'm not happy about it, believe me.  I'd like to come to some reconciliation, but how?  I had a reading in Cassadaga on April 1st.  It's not lost on me that it's April Fool's Day.

What can I do about my mother? I ask.
Agree to disagree, she responds.  Just accept her.  She's limited.  Reasoning and responsibility is her Life Cycle this time around but she hasn't made much progress here.  She has many past lives.  There is a spirit of fear, not enlightenment.   In a past life, she was very God fearing, which is why she's the way she is, even though she wasn't raised in a particularly religious family.  She may have fought in the Crusades, she's a warrior.  She has deep seated fears and probably died for religion.

Try this to help with her change.

Take a picture of her and wrap it in a purple cloth.  This symbolizes Spirit.  Then, wrap a pink cloth around the purple one.  this represents Love.  Place it in a container and cover with kosher salt.  Place a bay leaf in each corner.  This cleanses and blesses her.  Every few weeks, change the salt and the bay leaves and shake out the cloths.  You will see a difference in six months.

This is all I ever had to do?  I waited all these years for this?  Or is this my April Fool's Day joke?  I think this is just to woo woo even for me.

She goes on.  You will never convince her about your path.  You will extend the olive branch.  You must be patient and tolerant.  Let her believe she's right.  Get the peace.  Ultimately, it's your call.  Keep your space and distance but send her a love card or letter.

So, I write a letter.  It didn't turn out to be a letter of reconciliation.  I got it all out.  It was harsh, mired in the past, angry, blaming.  Definitely not written from a place of love.

I go to Jo-Ann Fabrics and Crafts to get the purple and pink cloths.