“ I think I am smart unless I am really, really in love and then I’m ridiculously stupid.”
Who said that??! An adolescent in the game of love....Taylor Swift, in an interview with Vogue this month.
I think she stole that straight from me....and I’m ancient in the game of love. Still applies sad to say. I hope I’ve learned something from the past five years of unrequited love.
I’m still on the Dating Program of Three that Dr. Diana Kirschner recommends. Divide three guys into seven nights and you can see it’s not going to be equal. I try. One always draws the short straw.
In reality, it’s more like the Dating Program of Two and I’m happy to say both of them are keepers...aka they’re not players! They don’t see the need to ‘spread their seed’ around like the last one. I don’t think I’ll ever get over that quote...really??? At 66? Kind of like a dog?
Basically, I’m home maybe one night a week! There are concerts in intimate venues, jazz clubs, plays, brunches, dinners, movies, pubs. There are stimulating conversations over editorials, politics, social issues, current events, books. It’s just fun...right now.
Keeping it on the slow side....not going intimate...any time soon. I felt so pressured for that the last time. I am not going there this time. Both of them let me set the pace and they’re fine with that. There’s the arm around my shoulder or a kiss on the cheek or walking arm in arm. Nothing more. It feels right.
I don’t feel needy....there’s no rush. If it’s meant to be, it will happen. If it’s not, it won’t. Of course, at this age, maybe we should step up the pace...who knows if there is a future? That’s way too pessimistic, I scold myself!
Live in the moment. Appreciate now. Love life.
At times, I get caught up in the what ifs, wondering how long it could go on like this. At some point, I’ll probably choose one over the other or move on if one gets too serious and I’m not ready.
But, Taylor, girlfriend, I am determined not to be ridiculously stupid again....unless I am really, really in love. Just kidding...:-)
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